Hi gcoe,

just to give a bit more info...

had physio today, was really tense and anxious at beginning (kind of dreading it) but finally I managed to concentrate on my breathing, and then it seemed to be much better. I seemed to have reached a state where I really just accepted whatever he was doing, rather than being curious, and it seemed to help. He was also more communicative today and more positive - seems that some of what he did last session has helped because he 'tested' areas again and there was improvement already. He said basically what is really difficult is that I have loads of things everywhere which need working on, due to the impact of the bus collision, and he also said I won't necessarily feel all the pain, but that doesn't mean that physio can't improve it, nor that there isn't something wrong.

I also saw the psychologist this morning, before the physio, and she helped me see it in a more positive way - i.e. someone very experience helping you mend and get back to how you were before, maybe even better, provided I don't block it and go against it. Also she mentioned that what I am feeling is not necessarily the whole picture (like the shoulder which I hadn't felt in a painful way but which I feel like I have since 'refelt' - it's kind of light and more sensation now) and that they have 6 years minimum training, so he must know his job.

The physio also said he felt this time it went much better than last time. I actually walked out feeling better, 'lighter' and much more looking forward to next session. Off to get ready for dinner with friends now. Phew!