Gerry, athletes routinely decribe the thrills of competition as beyond words, though one word springs to mind,Fun.
Disabled athletes enjoy the same joys associated with exertion, connection to team building, committment to excellence and the benefits of fitness , as non disabled athletes. It's far broader field of human behaviours than tribalism and worth every moment.
Maybe there is a place for you amongst their ranks, can you make your neck crack ?, to music?, there have been stranger things on talent shows.
Keep up the thoughts, I fancy your early morning writing is akin to exercise as a way to vent steam and relax that curious mind of yours.
Cheers